The first words to the song "My Savior and My God", an amazing song that tells how much we don't understand the grace and the love of our Savior. Tonight I can't stop thinking about that first line..."I am not skilled to understand, what God has willed what God has plannned....I find myself wondering more and more what His plan is for me. I look at my family and know that He planned for this to be an adventure, I mean come on, a husband and three children, to me that is nothing but adventure! I know that is His plan. My thoughts tonight go deeper. I don't understand His plan in allowing me a child with Autism. A child that is sweet and kind and good. A child that loves his family and loves to play. A child that is smarter than I can even being to understand and a child that can't express most of this to the world. He is my heart. He is my world and I adore him, but I am not skilled to understand. I think over and over again that God must have confidence in us to raise this child, but sometimes it's hard to remember, especially on days when nothing goes smoothly. My other two children are also my heart and my world...they can just express themselves more easily, and express themselves they do!
And tonight while I am feeling overwhelmed by the life God has planned for me I am grateful that He understands and He has a plan!
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