Just Rambling....

I have decided I hate Autism. I don't like what it does to families, and I don't like what it has done and is doing to my Seth. I know beyond any doubt that God has a bigger plan and His plan is bigger than Autism, but getting to that plan isn't going to be easy. I guess anything worth having isn't easy...but still I hate the process. There are so many questions that never seem to get answered. I don't know what is best, what type of therapy, what type of diet, what type of anything is best at this point. I love Seth, and I will do anything for him that I can. I just feel like I don't know where to begin. It's almost like I'm spinning and can't stop. It makes me dizzy thinking of all the things that we have to do and the things that have to be done for the future. I'm tired and not sure what is next. Again, I know that God hold our future and He has all the answers....I just need a few answers soon. Until then we wait, and pray and hope for the best. I still hate Autism...but I can't change it and I can't cure Seth, so I live with it.